So this week has had it's emotional up's and down's.
It is finally my last week of college. EVER. only 3.5 days left, then I get to see my special man <3
But this past week has been a bit mental. So much going on, and for the most distressing part - i couldn't be home.
Matty had a crap couple of days with his family. But that's private, i won't go into it. But i should of been home for him, he needed a cuddle :( Bless his soul, he doesn't deserve this - he's a good guy. He has the right kinda friends around him in Shetland thankfully, and he will always have me. <3
College has been a bit... well, shit.
Remember how i spoke about the nasty facebook page? Well, it's been deleted now thankfully.
I got told this at 04:13 on sunday morning by Linda. eh, wtf mate.
I don't reply, but cheers for waking me up bitchessss.
So anyway, i text her back sunday lunch time asking why she text so late.
"because i went out with the boys."
lolol, they don't even like us. whateverrrrrr.
Me and Linda used to be attached at the hip. i think i can safely say we're not anymore, it's awkward between us now after what's happened. She was a complete bitch, and i don't like the way she treats and talks to Matty.
Change of plans for next summer too. so far, anyway.
Not england.. but abroad.
Spain. France. Tenerife. ibiza. Majorca. WHO KNOWS.
But just me and matty i think, he's never been abroad so i want to make it amazing for him.
I've been around a fair bit, and there's a few places i'm set on avoiding because of prices or the actual look of the place.
Has to be perfect. Only the best for my bubba.
TOMORROW IS ME AND MATTY'S 4 MONTH ANNIVERSARY <3
might not seem like a long time. especially compared to matty's previous relationship :/
But i love him more than anything, and it's my longest relationship.
Now EVERYONE knows this video! The epic rockstar video. Love it, and proper catchy tune. Probably quite true for most of us too.. except pretty sure Nickelback have the majority of what they "want" already.
BUUUUUUT, this time it's with a bunch of 20 year old guys who act their shoe size instead of age.
So i'm going home to work for two years at the local oil refinery, and another guy in my class has found out he's going up there, too. He's from aberdeen, i was looking forward to getting away from aberdeen and EVERYTHING associated with it except for my landlady and her kids. My digs give me comfort and happiness, madelene makes me feel at ease and is so easy to talk to and i'll miss it.
The reason i was looking forward to getting home so much was because i could go back to people who actually care about me, in a place i love and loving the right people.
I'm talking about Matty, my parents, my girls.
And, at the end of the day - home is where the heart is.
I'm not being bitchy, but shetland is fucking amazing. i HATE when people call it a shithole or "shitland" when they've never been. grow the fuck up, and find out for yourself.
So, naturally, facebook being the modern god of society, someone on the course has set up a facebook page which is basically a big slagging towards me with a photo of me. And the stuff is hurtful, and nasty, and not true. It's so harsh.
In the real world, this is misuse of IT or whatever. We had to sign a piece of paper saying we wouldn't do those kinda things on facebook. so eh... OPITO you do a great job! NAT
I went and spoke to one of the men at ASET, who looks after us i suppose, and actually showed them the page and i said
"look, i don't want to cause a fuss but what they've said is nasty. It's not fair, and they're all being pricks about the whole thing. I don't want anything said while i'm here cause it'll make it worse but what do i do? cause if someone did that while at worksite.. they wouldn't get away with it."
and the men i spoke to agreed. BUT, they said once you start worksite.. go to your COMPANY (BP) and tell them what's going on.
Doing that will pretty much give them the sack. And at this moment in time, give them all the fucking sack for what i care.
My priorities lie with Matty, settling into my new job on MY! home island.
I had to start from scratch when i moved to aberdeen, and he can do the same moving up to shetland.
This guy, John, can fuck right off. I'm not going to help him out whatsoever when it comes to moving up to my island. He can make his own friends, find sullom on his own, do whatever the fuck he pleases but i aint helping him.
I've been bullied before and i got put into a bad place. This is bullying again.
But this time, my apparent "best mate" is taking part by liking the page and shit.
Can safely say, we're no longer friends. I don't give a fuck, i have true friends around me back home with a great boyfriend and family.
I only have a week left at college, i'm not going to let them ruin it. At the end of the day, i'm the better person because i'd never do that to any of them.
Matty has been really great throughout this. I've not told my parents because i don't want to upset them or worry them. Matty knows, therefore i know i'm safe. Matty, even though he's not beside me, just reeks protection and safeness. He's my safe haven.
What i like to call, my personal living hot water bottle.
bubba, thank you so much for being here for me as best you can. I know distance makes it difficult, but i know you'd protect me whenever you could. You're a darling, and i love you.